TRIZAS

TRIZAS featuring a series of self-portraits and prose by San Antonio-based photographer Julysa Sosa and depicts an introspective account with collected dream imagery using an iPhone. Trizas translated from Spanish means fragments. This body of work describes the journey from the dream world to the conscious world. These are the initial seconds after waking and those highlights from a dream, remembering the important information to survive in the conscious world. Each image is accompanied by a dream journal entry. The earliest documented dream from age nine up until twenty-six.


The Truth Is Blue   I was a baby Brand new Goddess Bright light Couldn’t see her face  She touched my lips  Blue marble in my mouth  Lifted my chin  I swallowed it I blinked into focus I blinked into blue I finally understood  She was me / I was her  I saw her mouth move  I heard my voice  “Wake Up” We spoke in unison

The Truth Is Blue

I was a baby
Brand new
Goddess
Bright light
Couldn’t see her face

She touched my lips

Blue marble in my mouth

Lifted my chin

I swallowed it
I blinked into focus
I blinked into blue
I finally understood

She was me / I was her

I saw her mouth move

I heard my voice

“Wake Up”
We spoke in unison


Manos   I am by the tree Swinging on the anchor Papa is finally home I touched his face “No entiendo, ya no vives aqui’  He laughs Kiss on the cheek In the corner a man Not human No face Wears only a gold watch He taps it three times Papa smiles I see the sadness inside Papa and La Muerte stand up  They walk through the threshold  I run after Papa se fue

Manos

I am by the tree
Swinging on the anchor
Papa is finally home
I touched his face
“No entiendo, ya no vives aqui’

He laughs
Kiss on the cheek
In the corner a man
Not human
No face
Wears only a gold watch
He taps it three times
Papa smiles
I see the sadness inside
Papa and La Muerte stand up

They walk through the threshold

I run after
Papa se fue


No   Sitting in the branches  Tree of life Six snakes surround me  One is translucent  Yellow eyes  He wraps around me  I cannot breathe I am happy Zahra screams  Spell is broken  I am afraid I am suffocating  I take her hand  Help me

No

Sitting in the branches

Tree of life
Six snakes surround me

One is translucent

Yellow eyes

He wraps around me

I cannot breathe
I am happy
Zahra screams

Spell is broken

I am afraid
I am suffocating

I take her hand

Help me


La Llave Del Cielo   Flying above En la casa de Monterrey  Watched Papy Chuy  Grabs his chest His heart I see everything He is in the hospital  Heart stops I scream They can see me now I fall from the Heavens

La Llave Del Cielo

Flying above
En la casa de Monterrey

Watched Papy Chuy

Grabs his chest
His heart
I see everything
He is in the hospital

Heart stops
I scream
They can see me now
I fall from the Heavens


Luz   My eyes are closed I am blinded by the light  Floating orb Heat on my face Absorbs me I am afraid “Where do you come from?” I ask “Are you of God?” Silence “If you are not, leave in peace”  It fades I am awake

Luz

My eyes are closed
I am blinded by the light

Floating orb
Heat on my face
Absorbs me
I am afraid
“Where do you come from?”
I ask
“Are you of God?”
Silence
“If you are not, leave in peace”

It fades
I am awake


Juntos   This world is crumbling  I am me, but not myself  They are trying to kill us In my hands Two embryos Mine   We are the last

Juntos

This world is crumbling

I am me, but not myself

They are trying to kill us In my hands
Two embryos
Mine


We are the last


Sightseers   Sleep paralysis Six ancient beings surround me  Whispering Pointing They do not scare me They can not touch me I cannot move I am afraid I dig my fingernails in my palms  Wake up with cuts

Sightseers

Sleep paralysis
Six ancient beings surround me

Whispering
Pointing
They do not scare me
They can not touch me
I cannot move
I am afraid
I dig my fingernails in my palms

Wake up with cuts


Seis   Con mi familia Cross into Mexico  Destruction Apocalypse Giant screen in the sky Papa spoke Hemos perdido la humanidad  They all turn to me Fear in their eyes Fingers point to my feet A snake cut into six pieces  Writhing I tried to hide my shame

Seis

Con mi familia
Cross into Mexico

Destruction
Apocalypse
Giant screen in the sky
Papa spoke
Hemos perdido la humanidad

They all turn to me
Fear in their eyes
Fingers point to my feet
A snake cut into six pieces

Writhing
I tried to hide my shame


Calle Galaxia   I am a child La casa en Brownsville I can’t find my family The blades of grass cut my feet  I am bleeding My path is blocked Rabbit Scorpion Spider They tell me I must choose  Pick destiny Mind chooses Rabbit Heart picks up Spider He dicho

Calle Galaxia

I am a child
La casa en Brownsville
I can’t find my family
The blades of grass cut my feet

I am bleeding
My path is blocked
Rabbit
Scorpion
Spider
They tell me I must choose

Pick destiny
Mind chooses Rabbit
Heart picks up Spider
He dicho

I Am My Mother   My mother’s hips  Strong and wide I crawl towards her She turns to pick me up  On her body, my face I cradle myself We are safe in her arms

I Am My Mother

My mother’s hips

Strong and wide
I crawl towards her
She turns to pick me up

On her body, my face
I cradle myself
We are safe in her arms


50 Cuts   With my family In Mexico, a plaza  Curandera in her tent She calls me Points to my heart "Todo tiene que salir" I nod I must purge She cuts me 50 times I bleed into two silver bowls  My family watches I am clean

50 Cuts

With my family
In Mexico, a plaza

Curandera in her tent
She calls me
Points to my heart
"Todo tiene que salir"
I nod
I must purge
She cuts me 50 times
I bleed into two silver bowls

My family watches
I am clean